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Posted on 1st Sep at 8:45 PM, with 966 notes

Anonymous said: So um, I think the reason so many protagonists are male is because men have always been in the front line in combat, and that's because it's been proven that (not being sexist) that men are defaultly physically superior... I say again that I'm just saying that from a scientific/medical standpoint... If I sound like a dumbass I'm sorry I just woke up and I saw ur account and saw the earlier post about this and wanted to give my thoughts on this






"Do you believe that my being faster, stronger has anything to do with muscles in this place?"

Video games are entirely abstract constructs, created solely from the rules of our own making. We try to model the game rules after real ones in some amount of similarity, but things like muscular development, or traditional front-line combat fighters mean almost nothing when you’re talking about a fantasy or science fiction world that can choose which laws of physics it wishes to adhere to. There’s really only one reason why the default protagonist in video games is a middle-aged white man - the developers and publishers choose it to be so.

THIS. Every game universe represents a series of choices made by its creators. What you include, what you omit, what you present to the world is a direct reflection of your thoughts as the visionary for that world. There’s no such thing as a “neutral” or “apolitical” game. Even the fact that you chose games as your medium says something about who you are and what you believe is important.

Whenever people scream “keep your politics out of my games,” what I hear are people who agree so completely with the traditional industry version of reality that they can no longer recognize it as a POV. The one particular perspective that creators choose to present. 

For me, the magic of games—of literature, of film, of all the arts—is that we are free from all the constraints that tie us down in reality. As noted above, you don’t even have to obey the laws of physics in your new universe. I look to games to show me something unexpected, something I can’t see when I look out my window. I want creators to make interesting choices that represent fresh POVs. I want them to be able to say “what if…” and run with the idea, not worrying if it aligns perfectly with reality. I want game worlds to be better and more interesting than real life. Because otherwise, what’s the point?

Why is the asker a sexist dumbass?

Well, for a lot of reasons.

1) As askagamedev pointed out, the “reality” in video games is whatever the developers decide it is. 

2) “Physically superior” is an awfully broad term. Men, on average, have greater upper body strength than women. But these things are overlapping bell curves, not fixed points. So while the average man has greater upper body strength than the average woman, there are plenty of women who are stronger than the average man. 

3) The heroes of most games aren’t the average man or woman. They’re exceptional. So it makes no sense to argue that the protagonist of a combat game should be male because most fighters are men. I mean, especially in a futuristic world where you’re fighting for “earth” or “humanity” as opposed to a particular country, if you want to go by what’s “normal” or “average,” it makes no sense to have the protagonist be white, as most people on the planet aren’t. 

4) “Men have always been in the front line in combat”? Sure. Yes they have. So have women, actually. Not in the same numbers, but often enough that it’s not a rare exception or anything. Women have always fought. Women have always led armies. I mean, here’s just a smattering:

3500 BCE(ish) - Queen Vishpla loses her leg in battle, is fitted with an iron prosthesis, and returns to battle, as described in the Rig Veda.

1300 BCE - Female warriors carrying axes and swords are painted onto the walls of Hittite fortresses.

740-720 BCE - Zabibi commands an army containing large numbers of women, and rules as a warrior queen. Her successor Samsi does the same.

500-400 BCE - Female skeletons of Scythian women are buried with swords and bows.

102 BCE - Plutarch describes Roman soldiers fighting contingents of female Celtic fighters.

39-43 CE - Meanwhile, in Vietnam: Trung Trac and Trung Nhi, whose mother Tran Thi Doan trained them to fight and led her own troops to support them, lead an uprising against the Chinese and took over 60+ fortresses with an army composed predominantly of women. Phung Thi Chinh also fights in those battles, and delivers a child on the battlefield.

49 CE - Agrippina presides over the exercises of the Roman legions. The captured Celtic king Caratacus and his tribesmen, when brought before the emperor, assume Agrippina is his partner in martial leadership and bow to her.

61 CE - Boudicca.

63 CE - Tacitus complains in his Annals that Nero’s gladiatorial shows, while pleasingly lavish, are marred by senators and women of rank “disgracing” themselves in the arena. Female gladiators are also mentioned by Petronius, Statius, Suetonius, Martial, Cassius Dio, and other Roman authors. Septimius Severus prohibits female combatants in the arena in 200 CE.

250-275 CE - Zenobia, governor of Syria, leads her armies against those of Claudius and Aurelian.

366 CE - Empress Jingo Kogo of Japan invades Korea. She’s pregnant at the time and has to have adjustable armor made.

373-380 CE - Queen Mavia leads her Saracen army against Rome in Palestine, Phoenicia, and Egypt.

550ish CE - An English princess, known as the “Island Girl,” takes an army and invades Jutland, capturing King Radigis, her betrothed, who’d jilted her.

600 CE - Kahula and Wafeira, two Arabian army commanders, join forces to defeat the Greeks.

647 CE - The (unnamed) daughter of a Roman prefect named Gregory fights in the front ranks at Tripoli. She is trained in horsemanship, archery, and the use of the scimitar.

656 CE - Aisha bint Abu Bakr, wife of Mohammed, fights in the Battle of the Camel. Salaym Bint Malham fights in the army with weapons she keeps strapped around her pregnant belly.

645 CE - Daya al-Kahina, a Berber queen, leads her people in battle against the invading Arabs.

890 CE - Queen Thyra of Denmark leads her armies against the invading Germans, and builds the Danneverke wall to defend her country. There are also numerous Viking graves from around this time containing the bodies of warrior women, and female fighters are frequently mentioned in sagas.

900ish CE - Aethelflaed, Lady of Mercia, leads her troops against the Vikings and builds fortifications to support the reign of her brother Edward the Elder.

900ish CE - Hethna, Visna, and Vebiorg lead Danish companies during the battle of Bravellir.

945 CE - Olga of Russia, raises an army and ends the revolt which killed her husband Igor.

1061 - Matilda, Countess of Tuscany, first goes into battle at her mother’s side. She begins commanding her own armies at 1069.

1070s-1080s (?) - Duchess Gaita of Lombardy marries a Norman mercenary and rides into battle with her husband, wearing full armor.

1098 - Urraca of Aragon leads her own armies into battle to protect her son’s inheritance rights. Her half-sister, Teresa, also leads her own troops.

Late 11th century - Isabel of Conches rides, armed as a knight, into battle over land in Northern France.

1172 - Countess Alrude of Bertinoro and her army break a siege at Aucona. When she returns to her own castle, she takes part in several more battles.

1173 - Countess Petronilla of Leicester arms herself in a hauberk and fights in her husband’s rebellion against Henry II.

~1100s - Queens Eleanor of Aquitaine, Eleanor of Castile, Marguerite de Provence, Florine of Denmark, and Berengaria of Navarre all go on Crusade. A troop of female fighters accompanies Emperor Conrad to Syria, and female Crusaders fight in the army of William, Count of Poitiers.

Late 1100s - Tomoe Gozen fights alongside her husband, a Minamoto general, in the Gempei War. Yae fights alongside her lover Takeda Shingen and commands a squad of female cavalry.

1200 CE - Saxo Grammaticus writes about Danish women who dress in men’s clothing and spend all their time learning “soldiers’ skills.”

1216 - Nicola de la Haye becomes sheriff of Lincolnshire and defends the town against rebel barons and the King of France’s son.

1261 - The Order of the Glorious Saint Mary is approved by Pope Alexander after about 30 years of existence. It grants the rank of “militissa” to women. (Sixtus V suppresses it in 1558 because women fighters oh no.)

1300-1374 - Jane, Countess of Montfort, rides armored into battle to defend her besieged city. She mobilizes the townswomen to defend the ramparts of her castle with missiles. She breaks out of the castle at the head of a troop of 300 horsemen and fights her way to freedom, later returning with another 600 men to reinforce the town. Later that year, she fights in a naval battle, wielding a sword at the helm of her ship.

Early 14th century - Isabelle of England takes up arms against her husband Edward II. Edward II forces her to flee to Scotland, where she fights in the ensuing war with a troop of women that includes the sisters of Nigel and Robert Bruce.

Late 14th century - Agnes Hotot’s father agrees to a lance duel to settle a disagreement. On the day of the encounter, he falls ill, so Agnes puts on a helmet, mounts her father’s horse, and beats his foe in the tourney. While he lies on the ground, Agnes lets down her hair and bares her breasts so he will know he has been beaten by a woman.

1383 - Pope Boniface VIII writes several letters mentioning female Genoese crusaders.

1518 - A group of 350 girls constructs and defends fortifications for the Protestant Garrison in Guienne, France.

1521 - Hernan Cortes’ army includes Spanish and Mayan women.

1524 - Ameliane du Puget leads a troop of women who break a siege at Marseilles.

1568 - Amaron and Kenau Hasselaar lead a battalion of 300 women to defend the Dutch city of Haarlem against the Spanish.

1584 - Tomoe Gozen, described as an excellent swordswoman, captures Kyoto after winning the Battle of Kurikawa.

And again, that’s just a small selection of some of the more interesting examples. Women have always fought. 

TL;DR: In a combat game in which the physics and reality and biology are made up wholesale by developers, and in which the hero is positioned as exceptional, not average, the only real reason not to have female protagonists is, yes, sexism. 

Reblogging mainly for this epic timeline of warrior women, but also general truth.

Posted on 1st Sep at 5:30 PM, with 128,791 notes
"To get a gun in Japan, first, you have to attend an all-day class and pass a written test, which are held only once per month. You also must take and pass a shooting range class. Then, head over to a hospital for a mental test and drug test (Japan is unusual in that potential gun owners must affirmatively prove their mental fitness), which you’ll file with the police. Finally, pass a rigorous background check for any criminal record or association with criminal or extremist groups, and you will be the proud new owner of your shotgun or air rifle. Just don’t forget to provide police with documentation on the specific location of the gun in your home, as well as the ammo, both of which must be locked and stored separately. And remember to have the police inspect the gun once per year and to re-take the class and exam every three years."

A Land Without Guns: How Japan Has Virtually Eliminated Shooting Deaths (via buttension)

see, that’s gun control
you don’t take away a person’s right to bear arms
you take away a person’s ability to abuse their arms
i mean it’s high maintenance but i really think it’d be worth it if it saves lives  

(via vintagedressesandavocados)

Posted on 1st Sep at 3:40 PM, with 5,595 notes
shout out to minimum wage workers have to work on labor day so folks with cushy desk jobs can have the day off.


shout out to posts that undermine organized labour by making it sound like everyone in a union has a ‘cushy desk job’ when the problem is actually that we’ve undercut collective bargaining rights so much as a society that workers who need them most have absolutely no recourse to unions. 

Further shoutout to the people with “cushy desk jobs” who have to work on labor day anyway because in so many cases being salaried just means they get to demand weekends and holidays and overtime and as much of your time as they want without having to worry about compensating you extra for that time.

Posted on 1st Sep at 2:15 PM, with 2,921 notes
Let’s Ruin Video Games


My name is Arden, and after a few days of thinking I’ve decided that I’m going to ruin video games.

I’m going to be doing everything in my power to destroy them completely. Walking simulators about feelings and emotions as far as the eye can see! Guns that shoot kisses! Lady characters that aren’t designed to cater to the whims of straight men! I’m hiding loving queer couples in every treasure chest instead of new armor. Every game will now be required to have at least one section that can be described as “too” personal. Fuck, if I’m feeling really bold, I might even throw some non-white characters into a game or two! I’ll magically replace every copy of every big-budget first person shooter with either Gone Home or Dear Esther and listen to the agitated shrieks of gamers.

Non-men have been “ruining” games for a long time, of course, by virtue of existing and trying to make the medium and the spaces around it more inclusive and less festering garbage. I’m just owning up to it now, so there can be no doubt: I’m here to ruin games. The space gamers have carved out is broken and vile, and I’m done with it. This is not their hobby anymore, it is our art.

I’m ruining video games! Join me! Make a personal story in Twine, nothing pisses gamers off more than interactive fiction sharing experiences that don’t cater to them! Make something in RPG Maker! You don’t even need to put combat in it! Make a dating sim or a visual novel in Ren’Py! Ruining games is easy, I know you can do it too!

Posted on 1st Sep at 4:11 AM, with 68 notes


Seriously, everyone. If you have a younger brother or cousin or what have you really into the gamer scene right now, make sure they aren’t getting swept up in the whole GamerGate mania right now.

There’s a horrifying lack of empathy brewing in the corners of the internet, and it’s riling people up who feel like they’re part of a community that’s being attacked. The thing is, the perceived “attackers” are people who care so much about being a part of that community, they want to make it better. They want to make it bigger, so that people of all genders and races and sexualities can take part in it and enjoy in it all together.

By buying into the fear of inclusion, they’re developing deep-seated anger towards women (in particular with this current round of fighting), that they could carry for their entire lives.

Talk to them. Make them feel stupid for a minute, and make them see that they have to be better people. Or, if they’re totally already on the right path, use the fact that you’re older and they look up to you to show them that they are awesome for standing against the tide and thinking for themselves.

This shit is important.

Seriously. Friends don’t let friends (or relatives, or casual acquaintances) get sucked into supporting GamerGate.

Posted on 31st Aug at 5:30 PM, with 3 notes
Dragon’s Head – Manchurian, Pear, and Pippin Ciders | Bad Rider Reviews »

In this review I’m covering three ciders at once because I can’t tell the difference between them and I feel like it would be cheating to post the same review three separate times with only minimal changes.

Posted on 31st Aug at 2:15 PM, with 1 note
Oh Alberta | Bad Rider Reviews »

Well, it only took a handful of reviews for Bad Rider’s beer side to mess up its mandate. Those of you who actually read the specs part of this post and pay much attention to the industry will note that Big Rock is not a B.C. brewery.

Posted on 30th Aug at 8:45 PM, with 84,415 notes

i have never seen something more clearly written by a straight white male


i have never seen something more clearly written by a straight white male

Posted on 30th Aug at 5:30 PM, with 21,071 notes



The Nine Gates of death.

-from Sabriel by Garth Nix

(c) Laura Tolton 

First precinct: shallow water, easy crossing. Beware of the waterfall; do not descend until the path opens.

Second precinct: stronger, colder current. The whirlpool of the gate is treacherous and can be passed only with a freezing spell. Do not approach whirlpool until spell has taken full effect.

Third precinct: barely an inch of water, walkable. Do not walk. Run. Do not look back. Do not stop.

Fourth precinct: breathe. If you are still alive and on your feet, breathe. Proceed with caution; the Dead are stronger here. The next gate will appear to be a waterfall only a few feet high into another part of the river, but this is deceptive. A bridge spell is necessary. Do not, under any circumstances, enter the water past the fourth gate waterfall. 

Fifth precinct: fatal to enter current. Overwhelmingly strong, treacherously fast, leaches memories and life. Stay on bridge until sixth gate. Beware attacks from Dead in the water while crossing bridge. Fifth gate is a “waterclimb”; spell should take you upwards with the water.

Sixth precinct: Shallow pool. No danger from water; unfortunately this leaves Dead free to attack with ease. Sixth gate is a circle of dry ground that must be summoned. Necromancer is advised to do this with haste, before the stronger Dead come to investigate the disturbance of their entrance.

Seventh precinct: Fire, from horizon to horizon. An arch can be created.

Eigtht precinct: Dark water, with flares floating on the surface. Avoid flares at all costs. Necromancers should not linger here or proceed any further. Be warned that past this precinct, final death is nearly an inevitability. The gate is said to be a well of darkness.

Ninth precinct: Stars

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